I have a message for the underclassmen: if there's someone, (a teacher, a peer, a parent), who says something negative to you or makes you feel worthless, I want you to bottle that up and use their words as fuel to get you out of here. You're so much more than what they think. I've felt worthless, I still feel worthless, but it gets better. That's the one thing they never actually tell you. It. Gets. Better. That's on thing I never remember. I've been down more than I've been up, but you have to go down to appreciate the ups. I don't think anyone would understand happiness until they've been sad.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm here for nothing. I wonder if I'm here at all. I just want to know what my purpose is right now. I hate this waiting. I thought that maybe once I turned 18, I'd just magically figure it out. But here's my birthday cake from this year. I really hope that this isn't foreshadowing of what my year entails. It's all melty and falling apart. My high school experience has had mixed reviews from myself. Sometimes I lie to myself and say, "Oh it was horrible how did I survive?!" But other times, I lie the other way, "It was pretty good." But to be honest, I'm still living it, so I can't decide just yet. My roommate for college next year, Linzi, told me that all the bad things she goes through are for something better; she says that all the bad things are preparing her to be able to handle things better and get a better understanding, so she can help others.
Kori,
ReplyDeleteIt DOES get better. And you are NOT worthless! You're one of the bravest people I know (& one of the most FABULOUS)! Your role in English 12, as I see it, has often been to say what no one else will say, what no one else has the guts to say. That whole Cup Song thing? That was YOU, & it wouldn't have happened without YOU. High School sucks a lot of the time (I hated it, myself), but college will so SO much better! You're one of my favorite people from the class of 2014, and don't you ever forget it!
The point of the seniors' thank-you posts is to let those who've touched you during your years at Marshall know just how much they've meant to you, but perhaps we should be writing some thank-you notes of our own to the students as well. Kori, I love that you've been one of the students who is willing to come into my office and talk, just about whatever is on your mind (or about getting to know your talented roommate-to-be!), because those are the students that I always wonder about for years to come. You will do wonderful things, because you aren't afraid to go out there and do what you need to be awesome. Thank you for being you! :)
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